All along

All along, I’ve been fighting this loosing battle. I’m tired. Really tired. Pero bakit ganon? ako na nga ang napagod para lumaban ako pa rin ang talo?

All along, naghanap ako. Pinilit kong patunayan sa sarili ko na it’s worth it, na you’re worth it. But I guess, I will never find that one reason that will keep me on fighting for you. Because it never crossed my mind that that one reason never exist. 

All along, pinilit kong maging matapang. Tinanggap ko lahat. Kinaya ko lahat. Pero I still feel weak.Very weak. Akala ko kasi sa pag-hohold on kong yun, I’ll regain my strength. Na one day, lahat ng tapang na yun ay may patutunguhan. Pero wala pala. Hindi ko pala kaya.

All along, I stayed. Alam kong masasaktan lang ako pero wala akong magawa kasi yun ang gusto ko. When you need me, I’m always there. I always make you feel that you’re special. Pero kahit kailan ni hindi mo ata ako napansin.

All along, I have loved you. And kung ako ang tatanungin, kahit kailan hindi ako nagsisi. Kasi alam kong ginawa ko ang lahat to fight for you, for us. But I guess, I can never be enough. Pero kahit naman ganun, isa lang naman ang gusto kong marinig mula sa iyo eh, na masaya ka. Yun lang and though it will not take all the pain away but at least it will make me feel that it’s really all worth it.